Monday, October 4, 2010
Getting a cancer diagnosis is like other “bad news” kinds of things. It feels like a big cow in the road that you can’t get around—no way to move forward or make plans. The day after I found I had cancer, I was scheduled to speak at a service in a women’s prison. In finalizing my message for the women that evening, I realized we had a lot in common. My life as I had known it was coming to a halt for a season so I could deal with this cancer, just like their lives in so many ways had come to halt. Also like some of them, I found that within the confines of what seemed like a very small space, God was at work.
Isaiah 45:3 says, “I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.” I believe I’ll always mine from the wealth God has given me through that which from all appearances seemed like a dark time. But in fact, his presence and voice have never been more real to me than in days of complete and utter dependence on him . My prayer is that I would live in that presence every day.
We eventually found the cows’ owner and went on our way. Our destination was a women’s prison where we were ministering that evening. I was thankful I could enter that facility with so much hope because of what God has brought out of my own confinement of cancer.