Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Unseen, but Sure

I approached a small bathroom after the church service this past Sunday and found the door ajar. I reached inside and flipped the light switch, but nothing happened. The fixture, bulb, or both had gone south. Not wanting to walk a distance to another bathroom, I slipped inside, closed the door, locked it, and pondered how many steps there might be to the toilet. I began to unbutton my slacks in the inky space. Only the tiniest sliver of light slid under the bathroom door.

Out of the sea of darkness came a small sweet voice. “Hey, I’m in here.”

I buttoned, unlocked, opened, and turned around. There, a fellow much too small to read Women or Men grinned at me.

“I’m sorry,” I said. “I didn’t see you.”

His grin broadened. “That’s okay.”

I left the room, leaving the door ajar as I’d found it, so he could once more have a little light inside.

The cancer we’re dealing with at our house is only one element in a bigger picture of challenging difficulties. Difficulties, which I cannot share today, but in the past four months, I’ve found myself in small, dark spaces with only shreds of light. But into that darkness, much like the precious voice I heard on Sunday, I’ve heard in my spirit, “Hey, I’m in here.” The voice of God to me saying, “I’m in here to help, to console, to uplift, to encourage, to love, to lead, to inspire, to light.” The God unseen but surely present.

The light I have is inside me. And that light is God. I don’t have to fear the dark, because I carry Him with me at all times, in all places. If I start to doubt, I grow very still and listen.

“Hey, I’m in here,” He says.

Anytime, I can draw close. Anytime, even in the dark.

"When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life (John 8:12).”


max harrell said...

This ole world has humbled your reader. I realize that I am not destined for greatness. I am now even offcially too old to die young. I am a small item in the big box store of life. Recently I read a book entitled, God Winks. It is a collection of stories about how God reveals Himself in unexpected ways. These stories remind me that in the midst of trials and troubles that He will find me. Hearing that voice in the darkness that says, "I am in Here", laughing our loud in a waiting room that is usually filled with anxious concerns and through the birth of kitty cats, He found you and winked.

I love being on north campus on a winning football Saturday. The ringing of the bell is our sound of victory. Beverly, you know that you are a child of the light. Scripture tells us that the light will always overcome the darkness. When you pick up that bell to ring, the sound is your praise for the light, it is your praise for all things wise and wonderful. To us, your readers, it is our own special wink from God. He is saying, I am big enough to find you wherever your are. Keep on ringing your bell Sister and know that your light is a reflection of His light.
Carol Harrell

Beverly Varnado said...

Carol, you're such a dear. And you make me laugh with "too old to die young." Thank you for all your prayers and encouragement. All the winks are touches of his grace, and aren't we grateful? Many blessings, Bev

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