The
loss of my Aunt Nell last week brought to mind a couple of things.
First,
I love this tattered photo of her holding on to her younger sister, my mother. It's the only picture we have of our mother as a small child.
These
two are once more walking hand in hand.
And
I remembered these words from Streams in the Desert:
“This
mountain climbing is serious business, but glorious. It takes strength and
steady step to find the summits. The outlook widens with the altitude. If
anyone among us has found anything worthwhile, we ought to ‘call back.’”
It
seems in the past year, more than at any other time of my life, I’ve been
losing those folks who’ve been pillars in my life. I suppose if we live a while
on this planet, it is an inevitable course of events, but still unsettling and hard.
A
few days ago in the wee hours of the morning, I had a dream in which someone
came to me and told me my Aunt Nell had died―that woman who had been such an
encourager to me. I awoke crying and wishing I could roll back the clock to
those years before the dementia had taken hold of her brain, and I could have
one more conversation with her.
Of
course, I found out a couple of hours later that she had indeed died. I wrote
about her HERE.
After
the funeral, the family gave away copies of a little book she’d written about
her life. After she received her GED at 81, she learned how to use a computer and
began writing. Anyway, blessedly, no one
had edited the book in anyway. When I read it, I felt God had answered my
prayer, that I was getting to have a conversation with her. I was surprised
to see she had included a piece in the collection that I wrote about my mother,
which we gave away at my mother’s memorial. You can read it HERE. Repeatedly,
my Aunt Nell “called back” to me words of encouragement in that unique dialect
characteristic of those who grew up in the rural foothills of the Blue Ridge
Mountains.
After having a serious heart attack in the late sixties,
she was not expected to live much longer. But God had other plans. She writes,
“The first time I went to church, Brother Smith said he saw a light over my
head. The Lord told him I was going to be healed . . . I went from 1969 to 1992
before I had any more trouble. The Lord kept me alive because He is not through
with me. I call people and ask them if they are saved, I pray for them, and I
taught Sunday School for twenty seven years . . . I never get tired of serving
Jesus . . . “
And
so in her eighties, she wrote, “I know I have failed Him so many times, but He
loves me still. I don’t know what the future holds for me here on this earth,
but I know who holds my hands. He is my Master. He is my King. He is my Savior,
my all and all.” Then she invites all who read her words to consider giving
their lives to the Lord, too.
She
had gained the summit and she wanted those coming behind her to find the
heights as well.
When I read her words, she helped me realize
the value of my own writing―not because I am the greatest writer in the world,
but because it is MY writing, MY testimony. If those who follow me want to have
a conversation with me, I am calling back to them through my writing. I have
written my thoughts on hundreds of subjects. It is part of my legacy for those
who follow. If they wonder how they will
make it when the pillars in their life have been removed, here I am saying, by the
grace of God, you can, because God is giving me that grace right now to keep
moving ahead. To keep making plans.
I
want to be like my Aunt Nell who never, ever gave up on her dreams and kept
mentoring others in the faith until she could no longer string the words together.
Then she inspired simply through her being.
Like
her, I want my work to be eternal. I want my life to matter. Sometimes the
climb is so steep, and the learning curve so serious, I feel I might fall
backwards off the cliff, but I hear her and others calling, “Hang on, it’s all
worth it.”
There
are pictures to paint, and music to play, and books to write and others to
teach, and as long as I can, just like my aunt, I will “call back.”
So
for all you folks just like me who are headed up the steep cliff of life, hey,
we’re going to make it.
We
are and as we do, we will “call back” to those coming after us that they can
make it too.
“Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who
blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we’d better get on
with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no
parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished
this race we’re in” (Hebrews 12:1-3).